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male
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:I never realized how much power a single girl can hold over me. I fell very hard for a girl back in 2004, and to date, I cannot get her out of my mind. She's everything a guy would want: absolute natural beauty, intellect, shy personality. What's worse is that she's been around ever since elementary and I never noticed her.During our high school career, she's made a few accomplishments, and I began believing that I wasn't good enough for her, and this keeps on going now. As the years went by, my crush for her just began getting stronger and stronger. She was all I could think about every day and every night. Yet, I hardly know ANYTHING about her on a deeper level such as her likes, dislikes, interests and such. I've even tried changing myself physically and mentally for her; she was my motivation for everything: school work, band, exercising, and more. I'm always striving for her attention (she knows I like her, but we're both usually very quiet on a regular basis). The results I've gotten from these changes have done me well....but the damage caused by it...let's just say I thank her for it, but I can't forgive her as well. Even when I saw that she actually had a boyfriend (a few weekends ago, I was at the wrong place at the worst time), I still kept on changing myself for her. Plus a friend of mine told he she thought I was 'weird', and thought I should go 'climb a tree'. Even still, a while ago, I randomly whisper her name very often, it's also a terrible habit for me, sometimes I can't even stop repeating her name. What I'm trying to say is....I want this girl, I just can't, and will never, see myself with anyone else but her. I've been captivated by this girl for 5 years...and at times, when I look back at it, I feel like I've wasted so much time. Even today, right now, I'm still thinking of her.Over those years, she has made some acute interest towards me, but I could be misinterpreting.Why is it that I have to suffer like this? It hurts not feeling good enough for her. What's wrong with me...?
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reader, Lovelost1026  +, writes (27 February 2009):
 Don't worry there's plenty of fish in the sea.... I've had this same problem but we were good mates and I loved everything about him and I still do but he just kept on rejecting me but you learn 2 deal with it and no matter what you will always love her but there is someone out there for you, you've just gotta keep on searching for her.. x
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