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writes:I don't know how relevant this question will be on this website as it's mostly about the relationship with myself - sorry if that sounds egotistical or narcissistic. Anyways... my boyfriend and I have been together for over three years now. Three years and a month and a half to be exact. We know we'll eventually get married, have kids, and blah blah blah.Well, he's currently in his second semester of his freshman year of university (a school that is 6.5 hours away). He's also currently enjoying the "traditional" college experience but I do trust him to not do anything completely stupid. And school... just isn't for me; which is kind of ironic seeing as I want to teach. All during high school, though, I just did not care; I almost never did my homework or studied for tests. And then of course, near the end of my senior year of high school, I finally get it in my head that I totally screwed myself academically.At this point in time, most of the people I grew up with are now in universities and enjoying the "traditional" college experience. Getting drunk every weekend and partying until 6AM; living in cramped dorms; meeting a million new people; pulling all-nighters to study while high on caffeine; and just being idiots for that awesome four years of their lives. And I know it's completely my fault that I'm not doing the same thing, but I'm twenty years old, should be a sophomore in a university, and having a life. Let me tell you, not a day goes by that I don't wish I could do high school over academically. I regret every, single day of my high school career.Instead, I'm working ten hours a week at a craft's store that I don't give a shit about and living with my parents. My social life has been the computer for the last seven years of my life and I feel so... on pause with everything. Don't get me wrong, I DO have plans for my future, I do know what I want to do. But for the next couple of years, things are just going to suck. One of my best friends is getting married in the summer and I'm the maid-of-honor. She moves to California with her fiance immediately afterward and another "best" friend of mine is too busy helping raise a son who isn't even hers and maintaining a pretty strong relationship with the father of said son. -- That's a very long and irrelevant story in itself.My other best girl friend moved to Georgia in August of 2009, so it's kind of hard to hang out with her when I live in northern Illinois. Other than them, I don't have many friends who have nothing else to do but to hang out with me. Most of my friends have full-time jobs or are actually in college or they're raising families. It doesn't help that I live in one of the most boring cities in the United States. I mean, the city is pretty large (second largest in Illinois), but when you've lived here for as long as I have (almost five years), shit gets really old really fast. I always feel sorry for those who have been here their whole lives. It's actually my boyfriend's hometown.Speaking of whom, he's actually planning to transfer to the community college up here in the fall where I did attend for three semesters, but earned only twelve credits. Basically, the plan is that I will go back to college once he's earned his Associate's. He's been encouraging me to just save as much money as I can so we can move in together in the fall. Problem is, I'm not really sure I can do that working on only ten hours a week; it doesn't help that the economy totally fails right now. I'm actually really surprised that my boyfriend is still with me; considering I'm someone who has nothing going on in her life right now. And I mean, I do have a couple of hobbies; I like looking on eBay for things I won't actually buy and going on livemocha.com (I'm currently learning German).Anyways, I'm just randomly rambling now. And I sincerely apologize for how ridiculously long this is. But I guess what I'm really trying to say in all this, though, is, what should I be doing with my life right now?
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reader, anonymous, writes (18 January 2010): if you want someone to tell you what to do then go back to school, or get a ged, and join the military. now if you want someone to be honest to you then you need to take a step back review your current situation. now is it where you thought you end up? if no then do whatever you have to to get there. now don't ask a blatant question like that. your an adult make your own decision. don't ask someone to tell you what to do.
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