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writes:This is a continuation of a question i asked a little while ago. http://www.dearcupid.org/question/i-care-but-i-dont-care.html Unfortunately I seem to have misplaced my login for my other account and was forced to make a new one, oh well... anyways.. I broke it off with her roughly three weeks ago.It was hard, she cried, I cried. You know.. I was just fine for the first bit, in fact I felt bad for not being as devastated as she was. But then it started. You see at school and everything it was of course awkward at first. But now we are very friendly, eat breakfast together in these mornings and whatnot. I still find myself giving her long, tight hugs.Today was an odd day, we decided to eat lunch together for the first time since our break up, privately we were sitting on the floor together and i put my arm around her and it felt so wonderful to be close to her again. I ended up kissing her and hugging her several times. But then it hit me "What does this mean now?"I've obviously flirted with the idea of getting back together with her but a few things have been stopping me. 1) her mom thinks I'm a bad influence on her, she told her that she should "want better". Ouch. I don't know if I could face her family after screwing up and breaking her heart already.2) I'm a very very indecisive person. I'm never sure if what I want at all. If I screw up again then it would be doubly devastating for both parties.3) I'm still not sure if we're compatible, like we have trouble finding things to talk about sometimes and our ideas of fun differ a bit. But now, I want to get back together with her because i still love/care for her very much. I also have some emotional issues. She's virtually the only person other than my mom that I've been able to cry on/with and I still don't like crying around my mom that much. I could tell her about my issues and all she would do is listen and I never needed to feel judgement or disgust no matter how horrible the incident. She was so warm and caring and still even cares for me now.This girl just emanates care, love, and warmth to me. Everything she does I found cute as well. I'm always going to miss those magical times when we would be holding each other in the dark, suspended between sleeping and awake. All that existed was the feeling of each other. This all makes me so sad to think about and i miss her so dearly but I'm too afraid to try again.
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reader, troubles_ahead +, writes (20 December 2012):
troubles_ahead is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI'm a bad influence because I smoke pot. Her mom never said she couldn't date me, she said it's all up to her. We have been eating lunch together for the last couple days, and intend to until the end of the world on Friday (just in case. We both promised not to kiss or anything likewise. At the moment, we just sit close (arm around most of the time) We have several classes together and we are both still very playful and nice to eachother. Long, tight hugs still. At the moment I don't think I'm doing any harm if we've both established these boundaries.
I can't help but be close to her.. This time I'm spending with her is making me feel for another shot at our relationship. But not very soon at all. We plan to spend more time with each other as (close) friends before any decisions are made.
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