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writes:Hello every body.I have got a little problem with luck a I would like to leave this out, I am really pissed off in this moment. As some of you might know, I'm living in Germany. Yesterday, me and my friends went out in Hamburg, a huge city in the northen side of Germany. It's known for it's redlight district. Sadly, Discos and so on are in the same street... Well, the day started O.K., untill we came there. WE were 3 guys and 7 girls. The girl I love was with us also. She already knows about my feelings, but she has got a complete mess in her life at the moment. As we were on this one huge steet with the discos and so, 3 Irish dudes started to run behind the girls, against what I reacted and told them to go away. As you might assume, the y didn't like it, so they started to follow me and yelling shit at me. One of the guys that was with me was holding me apart, trying to avoid a fight. He pushed me into a Mc Donalds, but the idiots came also behind us. I knew what was going to happen, so I took my glasses off and put them on a table. I got smacked a few times, but well, It's nothing new to me. I am a boxer since almost 5 years now. I truly hit one of them hard in the chest with my foot, and so he kept back, but there were 2 more. One kept up coming close to me, so I grabbed him around the neck and squeezed his eyes almost out. He even tasted my knee. But then I went to ground with the one I had, and the other 2 started kicking me in the face. I barely got a scratch 1 cm long on forehead, just ontop mi nose, and a little hematoma, not even 1 penny big on the nose. The fight went off, because the one I grabbed was the leader, and I think he got scared. He knew I could have killed him by just snapping his neck back, but he realized I didn't want to fight. My problem is that outside the fighting ring, I dont know when the end of a fight is, so I get scared of injuring somebdy bad.. I would like to be more merciless, but it just wouldn't be me. The girls were all freaking scared when they saw blood all over the place (mostly mine, from the nose). Now, the girl I love feels As she would have the fold about what happened, and I dont know why. I also managed to cheer the people up. We stil lwent to the disco and had our fun. But this morning, as I woke up, I felt like I had lost my pride. I should have bashed those 3 morons instead of trying to avoid a fight.. I also don't know anymore how to approach the girl.. I have this feeling that says that she doesn't feel secure with me anymore. This is my biggest problem... I lost all this security aura taht I had, I lost my Pride and I lost a fight, because I quitted it even before it started. I even think I lost my love forever. I would just love to get swallowed by the earth and never return. I really hate myself now, And I can't do anything to change it. I'm done in. Could someone tell me please how to recover my Pride? With it I could start over new and try to approach her once again..Thanks for reading.
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reader, Hellium +, writes (23 May 2009):
Hellium is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThank you both for your answers. They really left me thinking, and yes, what I want is she, over every other thing in my life. I guess You are right, maybe it's time to leave boxing and get concerned about things that need thinking instead of agressive acting. I will take that as the best advice so far. Thanks for everything. Now I will go talk with her and explain things. Maybe there is a second chance for this person right here :)
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reader, anonymous, writes (23 May 2009): i think its time to become something else and not a fighter. fighting is easy - we are animals after all. Not fighting is a lot harder.
So next thing is go find the girl - thats what you really want i think - so go find her?
Star.x.
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reader, Hellium +, writes (23 May 2009):
Hellium is verified as being by the original poster of the questionWell, There truly is nothing else that I hate more than death or anything that hangs with it. But I am used to fight, not to retreat. And what you say may be true, I will dig in myself untill I find out what's going on. What confuses me right now is that I know that I always solve problems by talking. Should I be scared of myself now? May I be changing for a reason? I never met love ( I mean I never even kissed a girl), but I'm over that already. I look positive to that, because things happen when ou least expect them. I just have this feeling that i HAVE to protect everybody around me, no matter what it costs. If its me? I don't care. Important is that the people that I love feel goot and have no problems. I am so confused right now, It's just crazy!
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reader, anonymous, writes (23 May 2009): you didnt quit it - walking away from a fight that you will only win by destruction is stronger than anything else - you need to find pride in that. you have shown great strength of character - by not fighting.
I suspect she feels insecure because the fight could have been avoided earlier.... you need to talk to her.
i am proud of you - if no one else is -
Star.x.
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