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anonymous
writes:I cant seem to get over this relationship, its been 8 years since i know him and he has been the only man in my life. I love him but he doesnt we dated for a year and then he got engaged to a girl who after a year of engagement got married to some1 else. He didn't come back to me after that rather started dating other girls but used to talk to me on and off. We met after a month or so and he always tried being physical, I was 16 at tht time and i thought maybe there is a hope, im 22 now. its been so long, he keeps coming n going he keeps flirting or maybe sleeping with other girls, he keeps dating others and yet keeps me on side and when i ask him to work things out he makes me feel so bad that im always crying im bad im ridiculous. we've been sleeping together for 4 years now i feel used cuz he wudnt make things official with me he'd say we arent compatible, but yet wud always come to me for sex, im sick of it. if i try to break away from him he wudnt let me he always says stuff and i take them as some kinda false hope. last year he moved abroad and since thn things were quiet okay but thn i found out he was still in contact wid his ex who got married so i called her n was like whats happening...? she said they are still in a relationship. when i asked him he said he is trying to end things with her.. well i bought that as well... a month later he calls and accuses me of calling her again when i dint and then we stopped talking ...completely cut off. For 2 months i didnt talk to him, then he msgd me one day about this camera i had of his... he wanted it back and asked me to reply asap. i replied that tell me whom to hand it over to and then he started making conversation and told me he is coming back...for his sisters wedding. am i excited to see him. he will sweep me off my feet when he gets here he wud need me all the time...i tried giving npo reaction but when he came here i told him that if he wants me its gonna be firever this time other wise no and then his attitude changed, he hardly spoke to me, didnt wish me on my birthday though i was in front of him that day for hours. I just cant take it any more. I've been crying for 8 years, ive lost my health virginity everything for him cuz i love him and he treats me like a toy filth and when i try to drift apart he doesnt let me. He went back 2-3 weeks ago and before leaving he wanted to see me badly and thats when he said things can be okay, they can work out and said if i think this is teh last time tht we r meeting it isnt true etc etc. a hope revived in me again and i was happy that maybe things will work out if he is saying it himself. well he went back and since thn its been weird, initially it was fine, he talked to me then he vanished for a while and later i found he just talks to when he wants to cuz im blocked on his list and also that he is involved with sum other girl here as well.. since 2 -3 days he just msgs me hi hello how r u whats up and tell me what he is doing and then when i reply he doesnt respond for hours, i wait n wait and then he goes offline and yesterday i witnessed him online on my brothers list whereas he wasnt online on mine. It hurt me like soo soo much, all these years ive been thr for him, endured so much pain, fought with the world, my parents family freind for him, gave him all i cud all he asked for and this is what i get - lies, mistreatment, he disses me so badly. I've been depressed for over years now and i dunno how to overcome it, i seriously think i need to go see a physciatrist cuz this time i cant take it, its just making me so dysfunctional. i cant work, i don't talk, i don't see my freinds, i don't eat, ive gone anorexic and i dunno its so bad. If he talks to me it gives me strength but when i find about his acts... it hurts me so much. I dunno how to get over him, how to let go, how to move on, there has been so much in our relationship, weve been involved sexually for 4 years . i was 15 when i met him and he has been the only one i feel no1 wud ever accept me and moreover i cannot accept any1 else in my life, i just dunno what to do.He is 26 now n yet so careless, I worry bout him and he doesnt even give a fuck! I know its stupid but im still willing to accept him back cuz whats destined to be no1 can change it but he just wudnt change, he says he doesnt want me yet he want sex and comes to me when he is troubled or depressed. I cant function properly, my studies my relationship my personality all has gone so weak. i pray to Allah to give me strength and patience to over come this misery but i keep going back to square one. ahh im so helpless how do i leave him how do i move on.... i go dysfunctional if i dun have him in my life and having him in my life adds on more to my misery n sorrow and he just cant do anything bout it cuz he says it on my face he doesnt love me yet gives me weird hopes that things cn work out when i try to leave him this tiem when he came he wasnt much sexually interested as well... he treated me weird, i mean he means so much to me yet he never fails to hurt me or disappoint me, im willing to leave him but he is so uncertain about what he wants or at least thats what he shows me, makes weird reasons up like my parents wont accept a girl like u n we cant be compatible as life partners. Okay fine we cant but then leave me. Why do u want me as a cushion?
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reader, anonymous, writes (5 May 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionyes...there is something wrong with
i told my mum one day that im not well i need to go see a physciatrist she got worried and wanst too fond of the idea...cuz my elder brother is schizrophrenic ...everytime i see him i get worried or maybe see it coming and getting me aswell :S
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reader, anonymous, writes (4 May 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionim trying to but how i feel sad and depressed. i just so dettached from my sorroundings my freinds family myself. i want to regain back to life. i dun want him to be the focus. how do i go about it?
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