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anonymous
writes:This may be a bit long, so I'm sorry in advance for that. Lately I can't seem to be able stop thinking about a certain girl at school. I barely know her, and she's older than me, but every time I look at her i feel so gay it's unbeleivable. just for the record, i've only been attracted to one real boy all my life, and that too was someone i didn't know much. and this girl is the second person i've ever felt so strongly about. i never thought i was a lesbian or anything, just that my standards were too high, but now i'm starting to question that. my friend told me that i look at her like how a boy would look at her. also my attraction towards men has faded to nothing over the past few months. I find the idea of having a boyfriend pretty disgusting, and i don't know why. Maybe it's because my parents' had a bad marriage and somewhat violent relationship leading to divorce, and because i was abused for a couple of months when i was in sixth grade. I still feel sort of flattered and nice when a boy looks at me or flirts or something, but at the same time i feel sick inside, too. it's not like i want to repel men or anything, because my best friend is a boy and i really love him, but i just can't stand the thought of being in a relationship with one anymore. I never used to be like this. oh, and there was a lesbian whom i was hanging out with at one point, and it was right before i started to crush majorly on this other girl. this girl (the one i'm practically in love with) is probably straight (she has a boyfriend) but i don't know... I don't know what to do. I've tried speaking to my mum about it many times but she just yells at me and refuses to accept it (i come from a fairly homophobic family). and i know my dad will kill me if he finds out i'm having these thoughts. he and i don't get along anyway. so yeah, basically i just need help. : (
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reader, anonymous, writes (22 January 2011): Im a boy a am in a siimlar aituation because my attraction to girls has faded to nothing since i discoverd i liked boys! I also dobt really like the idea of having a girlfriend but wen i look at the boys i like i think, yh i like to be with him. I too thought it was a phase but for it isnt! I hope this helps you!
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 January 2011): Im 13 nearly 14 and I pretty much have same situation with you my friends keep tellin me its a phase but i know its not , so i think people cant tell you if its a phase coz only you really know how you feel x hope ive helped
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