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female
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:Hello everyone! Thank you for taking your time out to read this.I'm a 17 year old girl, and basically...I'm pretty sure I'm straight but there's this one girl in my entire social circle that I am madly in love with. I'm not interested in girls at ALL, (not that there's nothing wrong with it, but I've always had boyfriends and I still am straight) but she's literally THE ONLY GIRL in my entire (short) life that I can't stop thinking about. And literally, for two months non-stop, I've been thinking about her day and night. The last time I talked to her was in two weeks, but I got sick of initiating the conversation, so the conversation stopped. But about three months ago, she flirted heavily with me and we got really close. She was the one who would call me first and ask me out (to go to places etc.). She even said she loved me, and I was beyond tears. This went on for a month, but then, out of the blue, we stopped talking all together. I sort of got the feeling that she didn't really care about me, she was just messing around. And I know that she's straight so...I've literally been depressed for these two months, been crying myself to sleep every night. The pain just doesn't go away...And no, I'm not contemplating suicide, I just want to get better and move on. But it's not happening.I still see her around, but she never notices me anymore. Whenever our eyes meet, she looks away. She cut me loose, as if I meant nothing to her. To hell with the romance, but even as if our friendship didn't mean anything to her. I just feel so alone. Why would she do that?I just want to move on now, but I still find myself in love with her. I can't resist not talking to her at times, and then I'm let down by her nonchalant attitude. It's a vicious cycle, and I want to stop hurting all the time.
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reader, Rochk +, writes (18 August 2014):
Hi anon,
As you mentioned you have only lived 17 years of your life and you have many more to come. You have many years ahead of you which may teach you things you never knew about yourself.
It seems that you are unsure of your sexuality but putting the sex of the person aside the main subject is love. Love is a beautiful thing, it brings so much happiness but unfortunately can also bring pain; it is likely that you will meet people and fall in love many times during your life time so don't over think the situation as you are still young.
Maybe you could message her and tell her how you feel? if you are not comfortable with revealing your true feelings for her, even just trying to re-kindle your friendship and work out what went wrong.
In my experience sometimes its best to distance yourself from a person whom has power over your emotions to be able to gather your thoughts and look at the situation from a different aspect.
I hope this helped Rochk x
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