A
female
age
41-50,
Trying4Me
writes:I was in a relationship with a man whom i love very deeply and have decided to no longer be with..purpose of this story..i don't believe there is one frankly lol. I guess the great thing about leaving the man i love so much is the part where my heart caught up to my brain...no more frustrating questions of why we were going so wrong no more draining myself when i communicated endlessly and his excuses being just as endless..what hurts? realising i had been a fool all along yes his personal entertainment for you see i fed his ego daily as well as his stomach..i held out my hand and let him lay his head on my shoulder..gave him my ear when he needed and if he fell i'd catch him...such the perfect girlfriend..but perfectly used. I use to feel i was missing something or i was doing something wrong to not deserve him to give me the same support or attention i gave him..when i would go through the toughest times he was never around and everything..and i mean everything was more urgent than i..until things out of no where became so clear..he was selfish..manipulative and self absorbed..i was not the problem this man could not see past himself to be a quality match or partner. I still love him and still feel he is a very good hearted man..just i won't waste my time on something that's headed no where..however my time spent was not a waste..i thank him for making me stronger..while i may fall for things i have not seen..i will never fall for the same tricks twice..for making me wise because from this i now know what i don't want from a relationship...for making me love hard because if i could give all of myself to a person who gave nothing..what could i give to someone who's just as much inlove with me as i am with them..might be magic..and last but not least keeping my eyes as open as my heart..because while i fell hard for him i let myself be blind to all the signs of him not loving me.
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