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writes:I currently have a boyfriend but I am still in love with a childhood friend ( my brothers good friend)who i liked since i was 11.I am now 25 years old. he confessed that he shares the same feelings for me, since we were in highschool 2 years ago when I was single. He was threatened by another friend who confessed to him that he wanted to court me, so despite him having a girlfriend at that time, he confessed his feelings. I dont know if it could be called courtship since he had a gf, maybe he just wanted to be with me because he was visiting my house evryday during that time and i really fell for him he would tell me how he felt and how" destiny was not on our side".I did not want to ruin his relationship, and he told me he had to give me up because he had to do what was right. I think this is because people perceived him to be the logical person that he is, aside from pressures of the societ, him being myu brothers best friend as well, of course he also loves his current girlfriend, so nothing happened aside from me getting hurt. it was from first heartbreak since i never had a boyfriend that time.it really hurt me.it was a love that never happened.he has the same girlfriend and I have a boyfriend now.my boyfriend was away for tem months. as much as i tried to stay away from him, we would sometimes be together on night outings with my brother and his friends, his girlfriend has work so when we see each other (at that time) without our significant other, we would get intimate, but to the extent of finally getting the urge of kissing one another which was something big because we were both trying to fight our feelings.my boyfriend came back a week after we kissed. I tried to fight my feelings because i was guilty of deceiving my boyfriend.2 months passed us leading our lives with our relationships. BUT we recently went on a night out with our significant others.it was the first time he saw me with my boyfriend. he was with his girlfriend and we wre with other friends.I was intentionally doing public display of affection to make him jelous. BUT I am still jelous . I am still hurt and i still love him. I am not fully contented with my boyfriend because future wise, he is not ready....and I am still inlove with the other guy...and I love my boyfriend and i am scared to hurt him.HELP! he actually messaged me one time this month if we can catch up on things, despite knowing that my boyfriend is back.i know i want the other guy , I dont know how to handle the feelings that i have been trying to fight.what should i do?
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reader, anonymous, writes (23 June 2008): This is verified as being by the original poster of the question....and the thing is, this other guy and i are so much compatible. help help help
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reader, anonymous, writes (23 June 2008): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questioni know that i have to move on but i have tried doing that for years. even thinking that I was over him. BUT, everytime we would see eacvh other , everything would refresh.i think he is engaged. I really am insecure about what he has with his girlfriend, the luckiest girl alive.i know he is trying to move on as well, but he would be confused at times as well, that leads us to being intimate whenevr we can. ....this with guilty feelings
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