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writes:I can't feel love. What should I do?My parents didn't love each other. I am the product of physical affinity and emotional malice. I remember when I was one years old, my parents got into an argument and my mom got a knife out and held it my father. I didn't know what they were saying but I remember feeling like something bad was going to happen so I watched the phone cords. My life has been one big mess of pain and rejection. I was sexually abused by four different people from the ages of four to ten. Through out my school years I struggled to make friends and I was often bullied. No matter how nice I was or how much I gave it seemed like no one wanted me around.I developed depression when I 9 and I've had it ever since. I met a guy a while ago. He tried to get to know me and I rejected him. I'm afraid to talk to guys because I'm afraid of rejection.People tell me they love me and that they care but I can't feel it. I don't think I know what that is. Some people try to show me that they care and I appreciate the gesture but I never seem to feel like they mean it. What's wrong with me?
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reader, TimmD +, writes (26 April 2010):
 Given the past experiences you listed, I'd have to say you should really be seeking professional help. Most of us here are not certified professionals and can speak mostly from experience. But again, somebody such as yourself deserves more face to face care.
But I will say not to think of yourself as something being wrong with you. You are a product of past circumstances. I think you are capable of feeling love, you just need somebody to help you see it. Eventually you will find the right guy who is able to bring it out of you.
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reader, ConfussedANDUnsure +, writes (26 April 2010):
There is nothing wrong with you, you've just had a REALLY hard life and trust me you can love it's gonna take someone loving you and treating you right before you can understand how to love.. I hate that things happened to you in your life that should have but i can tell you this and i hope you take to heart.. I was abused and sexually abused by my father when i was lil and i was raped when i was 11 and had 2 misscarriages by 2 different men that both left me when i was pregnant but honestly if i had not gone threw that i wouldnt be who i am today i proud, happy mom of a 2 month old lil boy with a past that was hard but i got threw it and so will you i hope this helped.
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