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writes:I don't even know where to begin. So I should probably start from the beginning. 2 years ago I had a relationship with a much older man than myself, who is married and happeend too be a radio DJ. I have wrote posts on here before in the past in case anyone remembers me. I have changed so much since writing those posts. I am a much more confident and happy young woman now than I ever was before. I am witty and funny and enjoy fun times with my friends at home and at work. :)I went through a horrible experience. And it's true what they say: What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger but deep down I still feel messed up. I think tooo myself. Gawd it's been 2 years, get over it all by know? I know I still love him. However I also know that I don't miss him. I dont need him in my life. I just feel messed up over the situation. I think it's affected me in a way that it will affect my future relationships. Even though I am not too scared to look for someone new. I think I am ready for a new boyfriend. I want to be happy. I want to be proud of myself. I don't know what goes on in my own life!I am close friends with someone who worked with this man. He knows something has happened too me. He knows someone hurt me. He just doesn't know who. In a way I want to tell him. I have no idea why. I just do but I can't betray my love. It might be like opening up a can of worms. I have no idea what the hell I am saying here tonight. If this confused you sorry.
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reader, anonymous, writes (31 January 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThankyou for your recent responses.I do agree I need to talk it over with a friend.Thats the thing I feel myself boring my friends with thisknow. Thats why I came on here. :) Maybe it will just take another year or so to completely be over this. Last year I was throwing random objects round my room like a mad person. Thankgawd I am over that know. I feel saine again but just hurt and messed up inside i geuss. If that makes any sense. And I dont want to be with not cause of what he done. But because, after so long of not seeing someone you seem to let their memory fade even when their still in your heart. Thankyou.
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reader, anonymous, writes (31 January 2009): i can see what you are talking about in a way. SO basically you love this person because of who he is but don't need him because of what he has done? I think you should talk about it with your friend even if it hurts your "love". If you don't then when you do decide to move on with another boyfriend you'll start to perhaps compare the new boyfriend with the old. And you are also right that it will affect your other relationships until you finally completely remove him from your mind and start living for yourself withouth thinking about what happened in the past releationship because that was in the past.
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