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writes:I'm a 16 year old male and I'm having trouble coping with being intensely in love with someone from my year, the only problem is that it's a guy. It's been going on for a year and a half, he is all I ever think about anymore and I'm slowly going crazy. In the early days, I decided to slowly befriend him and over the summer we became great friends. Over the past year or so I've seen him practically every day and we spend most of our time together, in and out of school. However, my friendship with him has given me a completely new circle of friends and since Christmas things have gotten worse for me. I've drifted in and out of a horrible depression, I've sometimes just spent days in bed ignoring school. I've come to terms with my sexuality and don't really care that I'm gay, but the strange thing is that I don't want anyone else but my friend. I've associated hundreds of songs with memories or thoughts about him and every time I listen to them I break down and cry. When I see him having fun with other people or not inviting me out on a random occassion I get extremely paranoid and think that he doesnt want me in his life anymore. He doesnt know I feel that way but it's eating me up inside. All my life I've known I think differently to other people, and most of the time, especially lately, everything feels like a dream, or just not real. Everyone around me can laugh and joke yet I'm speechless a lot of the time and putting on a happy face even though sometimes I feel really alone. I've had a year and a half of insanity, and I feel half the problem is him. I love him with all my heart, I love everything about him and just want to make him happy and love him, but it doesnt look realistic. However, he sometimes makes me think, because I remember his last girlfriend. She was from our year too, her friend set them up and I was heartbroken, when they came back it was so obvious I was after being crying, and things were strange between us. However they drifted apart and nothing became of it. But ever since then, which was 8 months ago, he has never been with another girl. I sometimes wonder if he's doing this to spare me the pain because he knows the extent of my love, or if he wants me the same way. I want to know if I should tell him the truth, I feel it is the only way to stop feeling so horrible.
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 May 2009): Sorry to say, but if he dates other girls and doesn't express any interest in guys then he is probably straight and you are likely to make your friendship VERY awkward if you make your feelings known. Your choice. Good luck...
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 May 2009): is this guy gay or bi?
i think you should tell him.
trust me your not alone the way your feeling huni, things will get better :) Xx
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