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writes:What can I say, I come from a deeply religious family that has always shamed gay sex, so I guess its always going to be hard for me to accept myself and come out, but how do I help that, how do people help themselves out of this confusing state?Untill a few months ago I was living my life unaware, I guess deeply closeted is another term, I mean sure I've looked at guys and thought they were hot, but I always told myself I'm just appreciating a good looking guy. Then sex with women started to get, boring, not satisfying and then soft.. one time I had to leave because I couldn't get up. So I was speaking to my friend about like not getting up and asked if he ever suffered when he tells me, maybe you're gay and just don't know it. I laughed at him hoe could I not know? Then he put his hand on my thigh right below my crotch and said " I thought I was straight untill a man showed me" then he started rubbing me and I grew instantly. Without being graphic he preformed oral on me and I exploded like never before. I left so quickly, he texted me a few times and called me the next day, told me to come round to talk. When he sat down he told me he had been having gay sex since he was 15, in secret, because of our families beliefs, he knows its hard to understand but his "gaydar" told him I was ready to be gay to. After a while we ended up in bed together, kissing, touching, stripping and then (protected) anal sex, first he topped then I topped. It felt amazing at the time but I laid next to him afterwards crying while he cuddled me, telling him we would go to hell what we did was wrong, and that it can't happen. Needless to say I was hooked and we've been sleeping together for the few months of this explanation. I love him, he loves me, we've told each other, I realise I'm gay and I love mens everything but I still hate myself everyday. I still wake up and think, maybe I'll see a girl today and just be turned back.So how do I accept myself? How do I be okay with it.
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reader, anonymous, writes (22 March 2024): Hi
I am a straight female Christian and yet believe that Love is all God wants us to do, and through loving and not hating we are keeping to his word. I see the physical side of any sexual relationship as a private matter and behind closed doors with consenting adults as a personal choice and preference. One day our souls fall in love hopefully and that is spiritual and of GOD, because god is love.
Many many different types of sexual relationships in the physical sense, for example: how could a man or woman acting out S & M sexual activities m class their type of physical sex as acceptable but not gay.
God does not want hate and haters he wants truth and love and if your soul falls in love that's that, we can not fight love.
I do think this is been true to ourself by following love always love and understanding sex is the physical. Just a thought.
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reader, anonymous, writes (12 March 2024): As an RMN there no words that I can say that will instantly make you feel good about yourself . You, have a journey with therapy that can help aid you to feel good about yourself . You will not go to hell. God loves all his children including you .. I'm Catholic and I believe this . You need to love you ..whether your family can handle that is their issue not yours . You need to be happy . As long as your a good man .. friend .. brother .. son.. lover and you appreciate what life has to offer and do your best to do good . Them noone can want or say anything more . God loves you .. he wouldn't have made.you otherwise . Be blessed
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