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female
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:I had my first boyfriend in May, we didn't go out for long but we ended up living together. He was. everything I wanted in someone. We did everything together, we slept beside each other. He would always look at me a certain way that i knew he loved me.I think it was because he was old fashioned. He always treated me with respect, came over everyday, held my bags etc. We would drink tea together. I was always sure to treat him the same way as well. And he was also very smart and intellectual, so we could talk about science and literature. He was my best friend and my first everything, even kiss.Things fell apart and he hates me now because of my depression, but I don't hate him anymore. He used to abuse me near the end and treat me like shit, we even lived together for a long while. It's been months since our breakup. We even tried to get back together once but I was very depressed and moved to another city. There is no way of us ever getting back together, we don't even talk. But I can't get over it now. I'm in love with him! I can't find anyone who can treat me the way he did. Maybe I'm just hanging around trashy guys. I've been in 2 relationships since then, and my good nature has been taken advantage of constantly. And I can't stop thinking about him. What do I do? I know he hates me.
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