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male
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30-35,
anonymous
writes:ModNote: As the OP was then under the legal age of consent at the time, then the OP, legally, was not able to give informed consent and so was a victim of abuse. If the OP wants this waiver removed please say While under the legal age of consent I was used sexually by gay men. Since i wasn't adult means before 15 and 16 years i was ^^^^^d by many gay men, i didn't feel any thing in that time because i was not adult. Since i became adult i like girls and boys to have sex with bothBut the more and more i prefer girls and some times i watch in internet. i feel very very hot and i like lots to masterbate. please let me know if you can help to explain what happened to make me prefer girls? thanks Reply to this Question
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reader, anonymous, writes (4 March 2012): The law protects minors until the age of 16 because until then you are deemed not to be mature enough to make decisions about sex. You were sexually abused by these `men`. The reason you didnt feel anything is probably because you blocked out how you felt. That is a common thing to do when you arent in a `happy place`. Finding yourself attracted to women might be because you are heterosexual but there wasnt time to realise that before you were `used` for sex by men. Anything you did during the time of your abuse was not your fault and although you were abused by men, that DOES NOT mean you were or are gay. I would recommend you seek some proper therapy with a therapist that specialises in sexual abuse and start to explore your sexuality. It will be hard but you will benefit from it.
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reader, Abella  +, writes (4 March 2012):
 Hi
Just give yourself time to explore this option, eg girls.
AnonymouseMale1 has some good ideas on DearCupid.org in his articles on dating.
And these links may help you to seek some further answers that could help you to discover that what you seek to do is possible, possibly because your sexual orientation was bi-sexual from the start, or even hetrosexual more than bisexual.
Time will tell,
here are some links that may help
Abuse
http://helpguide.org/topics/abuse.htm
Support after sexual abuse
http://www.aftersilence.org/
Survivors of abuse
http://www.rain.org
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reader, anonymous, writes (4 March 2012): you need to get some professional counseling because you've been the victim of rape and abuse, you have a lot of suppressed pain and trauma and if you don't process it in a safe environment and in a safe way, it can really mess you up later in life in your relationship.
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reader, Abella +, writes (4 March 2012):
You may or may not have sought counselling. I would recommend it as it is very important that you seek this counselling.
You say you felt nothing, but you may have instead pushed to the back of your mind what you were put through. The important things to remember that whatever your sexual partners told you when you were a teen under the age of consent, even if they were close in age to you, that they never had the right to encourage you to do what they did.
This is not me saying this, this is instead the law saying this. Grooming a child, manipulating a child with gifts, threats and money to coerce a child to have sex under the age of consent is regarded as sexual abuse even if the victim utterly disagrees with this remark. The Courts see it as abuse of a then child.
And if you were not quite sure about your sexuality at the time then having sex underage probably did not help.
And you may or may not be bi-sexual.
But in your case you are finding that your preference is now starting to become more focused on girls.
If you were bi-sexual to start with and did not realise it then you possibly did not get a chance to explore this while you were in demand by other men for underage sex.
Now as you find yourself appearing to prefer girls more it would still be useful to get some support so that things go well for you in the future.
I will find some links that may help and get back to you.
If you were lucky enough to escape some of the side issues such as drug and alcohol abuse then pat yourself on the back. if you also escaped self esteem issues also consider yourself very lucky.
Sexual abuse of children under the age of consent can have consequences that need to be worked through. If you escaped such collatoral damage then you are one of the fortunate few.
Best Wishes to you
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