She's my first but i'm not hers...

HondaEG8, posted over a year ago

I'm sorry for making this really long but it is a long story. PLZ help me out!!! im desperate...

Ok so im 18 n i recently lost my virginity to my gf. i have had such bad luck with girls its not even funny. i feel like it was my fault ever since middle school. i was always trying to be who i wasnt. i tried to be "cool" n make a lot of friends but i just had no solid personality. moving on... my first kiss was when i was 14. i didnt even get to date this girl becuz she ended things with me before they started. she was my sisters best friend at the time. ironic part is on that same day(although i hadnt met her yet) my current gf decided to stop having sex. realize we're the same age so while im still trying to actually get a gf she was trying to stop having sex with this guy that she was in a relationship with, they broke up but were still having sex. i finally got my first gf at age 16.(in 11th grade) things didnt go well becuz it was my first relationship so i got carried away n thought i fell in love. in the beginning of my senior year i met my current gf. this is my second relationship. we've been together for over a year already n we recently had sex for the first time together. she made me wait so long becuz she wanted to wait until her "anniversary". that "anniversary" was the day of the last time she had sex with her bf(same day the girl from my first kiss stopped talking to me) at the time who was her first and only sexual partner. i found this to be very unfair n even to this day it eats me alive... my only concern now is that we are deeply in love but i feel sort of like im not meant to stay with her. like she was supposed to be my first but not my only. i really love this girl so i dont want things between us to end but i have the urge to experience sex with other women. what should i do? should i stay with her as being her second and miss out on enjoying being young and single? do i break up with her n experience the single life n mingle with a few women? or do i cheat? i dont kno what to do... i feel like im too young to settle down but i really love her. help me out here?

Posted on 14 November 2007 @ 8:30 (London time) - permalink
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Cat_87, posted over a year ago

Hi!

Sorry to be so blunt but u are 18 years old! If you don't feel comfortable or happy with this girl you should move one! You have plenty of time to find "the one" I had a serious relationship from being 16- 18 and like you i wanted to expierience life, that does not make you a bad person.

Just go out and enjoy life and do whatever makes you happy whether being with this girl or going out having (safe) fun :o)

Good Luck! x x x

Posted on 14 November 2007 @ 18:46 (London time) - permalink
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HondaEG8, posted over a year ago

Thanks a lot! But I just decided that I'm going to stay with her becuz she really means a lot to me n I really mean a lot to her. She would be lost without me. If I really love her then I wouldnt care if I didnt get to enjoy life n have that safe fun before her. I want to have all that fun with her...

Thank you so much for your reply. And I'm sorry for not going with your advice. I'm sure if I were a different kind of person then i would have left her. I wouldn't want to leave her now. Its been too long for that.

Posted on 15 November 2007 @ 5:45 (London time) - permalink
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