willywombat, posted
over a year ago
Can I really depress everyone?
My Uncle was diagnosed with cancer in December and died 11 days after diagnosis. He went into hospital expecting to be told that he was going to have gallstones removed. The Consultant told him to go haome and 'put his affairs in order'. His wife has been fighting a brain tumour with chemo, surgery and radiotherapy and has now discovered it has she is untreatable -- back in three places and in her lungs. Her son, my cousin, has taken solace in Class A drugs. In 2006 my Nan had a pacemaker fitted as she nearly died from heart block. I was mugged on the way home form Uni. Our house was broken into 5 days before Christmas. I had a massive allergic reaction to some face cream (don't ask, should have patch tested it first) and am still on antibiotics for it. I caught my hubby out in a one night stand and we are in marriage counselling because of it... My Mum and step dad are acrimoniously divorcing after 22 years together and I feel abandoned.....
I could go on but I won't.
I have my moments when I feel like life is just so not worth it. I lie and I cry, I mean that crying when you cannot breathe. It comes up out of nowhere and gives you a pounding headache when you have finished. Sometimes I have sat on the sofa then looked at the clock and realised an hour has passed in thirty seconds.
But then, as I have just done, I walk into my little boys room and watch him sleeping....My beautiful, innocent boy, who loves me unconditionally and is the centre of my universe.
'nuff said i think.
Posted on 26 January 2007 @ 22:53 (London time) - permalink
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