| somekidlorena, posted
over a year ago
A couple months ago I found out my bf cheated and so I dumped him. His misery seemed to help me get over it faster as he called me 24/7 crying and even stopped coming to school. All his friends and even family told me to give him a second chance saying that he learned his lesson and blah blah blah. Must I say when I did, it was like a new light had come through. We were happier than ever and he treated me like a princess! But just as things were getting good, he left to India for almost a month. When he came back it was like his old self again, just not giving me the affection that I had wanted. I was getting frustrated with our relationship. I mentioned where we were going and he claimed I had no idea what I was talking about on his behavior and so on. Eventually I got tired of his immature and reckless ways and snapped over something small and told him I was letting go and to stop calling me. I told him I wanted nothing to do with him anymore. Then of course he didn't go to school and was very upset, but after like 2 days when I called him to apologize what I did out of anger, he was fine again. He stopped calling me, started going out drinking with his friends (who are girls). I got scared and I realized that I had only made things worse by breaking things off like that. So I went to his house to talk things out and he pretty much laid out that if I want him back I need to give him his freedom to do pot, drink, party, not try in school, and hang out with girls. Of course I didn't agree to it because he has a bad past with that and then he said that we should stop talking for a month. And I just sat there and cried and then left. Then the next morning he changed his mind and texted me and said I don't want to do this anymore I cant lose you I will change. Then that same day later on he changed his mind again and said I don't know what I want right now I need some time to think. Lets just be friends. Of course I didn't want to be friends and I was very upset. But then of course I hid it so I seemed ok. But then he would call me to talk, ask me to sleep on the phone with him, text me, and even ask me to come over. Then its like he tries to get my hopes up because when I try to call or text or whatever with him, it's like Im being the burden. And when I mention that he says its all in my head and that I need to stop over analyzing. And when I did come over, he doesn't even pay attention to me and when were on the phone he's actually acting like Im just some dude on the phone rather than someone he loved. I couldn't take it so I told him and he said, ok I'll stop giving you the wrong signals but also saying that im still very important to him and that he still loves me. His birthday was that coming weekend and so I try to make him happy and bake a cake to bring it over and surprise him at midnight only to find him having his own celebration that he didn't even invite me to. He didn't even thank me for the cake and didn't even say a word when I left like ten minutes later. The next morning he calls me because I was supposed to go to church with him like we agreed to earlier that week but told him why would I want to go if he can't even be a friend to talk to me when im around to begin with. He claims he was too drunk the night before but of course he could talk to everybody else except me. Then after he came home from church I came cuz he was having everybody over for lunch for his bday. Of course he didnt say anything to me again and barely acknowledged me so I cried in his room to my friend. Then I go home and realized I forgot my bag with my meds at his house and I told him and he said he'd drop it off but he never called or came and so the next day I call and he claims he forgot. Way to make me feel important! Then I come to get my meds and he asks me to stay so he can put my radio in the car. He ends up flirting with me and asking me to go to his room and take a nap with him but by the end of the day I got upset and left because I knew he was only playing with my feelings and I was right. Because when I got home he said he'd call me but never did. Then I ended up calling him and telling him that I cant sit around anymore and let him play with my feelings whenever he wants while he goes and lives a happy single life at the same time. He then says that he just needs time to think about what lifestyle he wants. But if he is so unsure is it worth for me to stick around?
Posted on 14 March 2010 @ 23:55 (London time) - permalink
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